Things I Love About Medical School: The Feeling When It's Going Well

Today was my first day in A+E. I Clerked a patient, picked up all the salient points from the history, examined her and spotted a couple of subtle but important signs and came up with the most likely diagnosis all while a senior doctor was watching me.


I accompanied the same doctor to resus where a patient with sepsis was brought in by ambulance: I managed to put in a big cannula, take bloods and cultures from it and then take an ABG and successfully interpret it. 


This was all in the space of about 45 minutes. A few things went well and I felt ten feet tall.


Last week on ward-round I answered three questions wrong and almost tripped over my own stethoscope.


The ups and downs of medical school are not so good for your mental health.

Things I Hate About Medical School: FPAS

FPAS, The Foundation Programme Application System is (this year) the absolute bane of the final year student's existence. Last year it was called MTAS and no doubt something else before that just as it will almost certainly be called something else next year. As UK graduates we are (almost) guaranteed a foundation year 1 (FY1) job in a UK hospital however this year the UK FY1 market was oversubscribed by around 180 people. This did not help with everyone's tension. 


The basic premise is that all students apply through an online system where their performance at medical school, any previous degrees, awards or prizes are converted into points. There are then five white-space questions asking you to discuss the attributed of a good doctor in 200 words or fewer. These questions ask you either to give an example of when you have personified some value or other (specifically the ones the GMC think are important) or to ask you how you would deal with an hypothetical situation. The questions are released some time in October and you have 10 days to formulate your answers before submitting the application so the questions can be marked by an anonymous panel. Better answers add to your total score.


The application also requires the student to rank his or her choices of foundation school. These foundation schools correspond to around 20 chunks of the country where the student could work as an FY1. It is the system of matching students to foundation schools that is the real stinker. The matching system ought to be simple enough that everyone gets their first choice or, for those with weaker applications applying to more competitive foundation schools, their second or third choice. Sadly though, the situation is not that simple and generally if you miss your first choice then you miss by a mile and end up at your sixteenth choice. It is the assumption that any student would be so grateful to get any job that they would happily pack up and work anywhere that is offensive.


The old model of medical school was that everyone came in straight from school with no family, no partner, no baggage and could be sent anywhere. An increasing number of students are graduates with things like mortgages, partners, husbands, wives, that sort of thing. The system will only give you the opportunity of staying in one spot if you have children in school, are a carer for someone with a disability or have a health problem yourself that requires you to be near a specific hospital. If you don't like the system then that's fine; you just don't get to be a doctor, that's all.  

New Evidence Links High Achievement in School with Bipolar Disorder

Researchers from King's College London and the Karolina Institutet in Stockholm have published data linking high academic performance in school with the mental illness bipolar disorder.

Anecdotally, high academic intelligence has often been linked with the disorder, also known as manic depression. This research however is the first to offer any support to such a theory but is unlikely to give the whole story.

First things first; Bipolar disorder is a very real and serious subject. It is a disabling mental illness with around half a million sufferers in the UK. These people live through periods of usually crippling, crushing depression coupled with periods of soaring mania. The depression that occurs in bipolar disorder is among the most severe that you can imagine. As a medical student I was lucky enough to spend six weeks of my psychiatry training in a mental health unit in East London. The patients I met were mainly those who had been held for treatment under one section or another of the mental health act. Many of these people lived with bipolar disorder and were receiving treatment during spells of this deep deep depression. It is worth remembering that bipolar disorder is one of the mental illnesses most likely to lead to suicide.

The depression aspect of the illness is not neccessarily what people are most interested in. Depression isn't exactly fun, but mania, especially when it comes with a spark of talent and imagination certainly sounds like it might be. The romantic notion of genius and madness being closely related has caught the imagination since the time of the classical philosophers and has a lot to do with the perceived flashes of wit and inspiration that are sometimes seen when people are manic.  Since Stephen Fry's excellent and moving 2006 documentary The Secret Life of The Manic Depressive bipolar disorder has had a somewhat higher position in the public imagination. One theme of this documentary was that people with the disease can, while living through a spell of mania (or its less severe cousin hypomania) have the most productive and creative times of their life. The documentary focussed on artistic types who found they were blessed with the ability to work extremely prolifically during manic spells. This presentation of the disorder is only one half of the story. When I've talked to people with bipolar disorder it has become clear that mania is not always (or even very often) about people who can't stop painting, or composing or writing poetry. I met people who had been walking the streets of the east end half-dressed in the middle of the night having unprotected sex with strangers and having to deal with the resulting pregnancies and infections. I met people who had given away or gambled all of their money. I met people, in short who were not having the greatest time of their life; people in desperate need of help because of their inability to keep safe. Mania is not a good thing.

The research from London and Sweden, published in this month's British Journal of Psychiatry was carried out by looking at Swedish school results. Between the ages of 15 and 16 young Swedes take compulsory exams similar to our GCSEs. The researchers took the results for almost a million young people taking these exams and, using the admirable Swedish national hospital records looked to see who ended up being admitted to hospital with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder between the ages of 17 and 31. The headline-grabbing result was that those with the highest grades had four times the risk of a hospital admission with bipolar disorder than those with average grades (a leap from 4 per 100,000 people to 16 per 100,000 people). This link was most apparent in humanities subjects, and less-so in the sciences. This seems to agree with ideas about creativity and bipolar disorder. However, another important result from the research is that having the lowest grades (in all subjects) gave people twice the risk of a hospital admission with bipolar disorder than their schoolmates with average grades. The research itself is meticulously conducted and it is likely that these numbers are pretty reliable and represent a real-life situation. I would suggest a couple of questions worth thinking about: This research identified that the average age of hospital admission with bipolar disorder was at around 21. Do your GCSE grades neccessarily reflect your intelligence or creativity at age 21? If bipolar disease does have a link with intelligence, then why isn't the relationship a linear one? Why are the lowest achievers at higher risk than those with average grades?

While there are doubtless famous artists, writers and for that matter scientists, doctors and lord-knows-who else who have managed to function well with bipolar disorder it's important to remember that most highly functioning people don't have it. Its very enticing to us however, this idea of the tortured genius. It appeals directly to our vanity on the one hand, the idea that those with a mental illness can be capable of greatness is a reminder that all of us, with our sub-clinical character flaws and foibles can at least have a stab at it. On the other hand, less attractively, maybe it has more to do with schadenfreude than aspiration; the flaws of the best and brightest validate our own.

Daniel James

Published in the London Student. March 2010